yay, family!

my sister Dawn arrived unannounced last friday, stayed for a week and left yesterday. haven't seen her since christmas, so the past week has been lots of family time. we celebrated both my dad's birthday and Dawn's birthday since they were only 4 days apart. it's been a while since we all sat together at the dinner able eating an elaborate meal my mom prepared. it's also been a while since we sat together and laughed at stupid things.. i rememeber the days when i used to crack up so bad at least once a week at the dinner table. my family had a bbq on thurs for dawn's birthday and they invited edward. it was the first time he ate with my whole family and i hope he wasn't too uncomfy. i mean, he only wiped ketchup on his shirt... and spilled fruitopia on his pants. heehee.

speaking of people i haven't seen in a long time.. my HK friend from grade 3 with whom i haven't spoken to in 3 years emailed today informing me of her new gmail account and so i replied, cuz i too, have a new gmail account. lo and behold, she added me msn right away and we ended catching up on stuff. she sent me a link to one of her online albums and damn, she's so pretty now! not that she was ever ugly.. but she's grown into really a pretty girl (at least i think so) with nicely-developed features while retaining a look of innocence. i told her she was really pretty a couple of times in our conversation and now i wonder if she think i'm lesbian.. cuz she asked me if i was attached, not if i had a bf. hahah.

i've noticed that a lot of people get prettier as they get older.. their skin clears up, they lose their baby fat and their makeup is applied with an expert hand. this is where i feel inadequate. skin clears up? not so much. lose baby fat? sure, but i gained some dense, adult fat. makeup with expert hand? nope, i keep buying the wrong shades of foundation that give me clown face. i think i should spend the rest of the year working on this.. but i'm always afraid that even if i lose 30 pounds, have clear skin and get all made up, i'd still only be average. fuck it, i'm average now, so why the hell bother? or perhaps this is just an excuse. bah!

time for: going out with hunny!