going crazee.

This heat/smog/stuffy weather has been driving me insane. Me and my body fat cannot take this much longer. This past 10 days has been worse than that whole summer I spent outside lifeguarding. Normal, Cdn heat, I can take. Bring on the stuffiness and I start to act a little erratically.

That's twice I've practically broken down and cried in the past 10 days. (okay.. maybe one of those times it wasn't just practically) It's a vicious cycle. I get uncomfy when it's hot. Therefore more short tempered and ppl annoy me even more... and I get even hotter. Brings all this anger up and just boils over and I go crazy. I don't yell when I'm truly angry/frustrated. I just cry. I can't deal with 10 things going wrong at the same time. Hello overload. Yes, I know, it's unreasonable to be affected by weather.. but there's Seasonal Affective Disorder to explain the depression some ppl get during the winter months.. perhaps there's something like that for summer too.

Poor Edward, I think he's been in the direct path of my absurd behavior. He'd give me a hug to make me feel better, which would usually work, except that right now, this just means more body heat and stickiness. So instead of squeezing him tight, I go, "ack! hot! go away!" Poor guy. I'm sorry! I'll make it up to you! If you see him, give him a hug for me, will ya?

To the stupid lady with the older chinese women at Pacific today: you morons, are you blind?? did you not SEE me waiting for your spot from a very awkward position on the road? did you really have to take 5 fucking minutes to put your groceries in the car, get in and drive away? did you really have to chat some more in the car once you got in?? *Give you the broken face!!*

Damn you, inconsiderate ppl!! Stop crossing the road diagonally. Take the shortest route across the road so you don't hold up traffic. Get in your car and get out of the spot in busy malls! And if you walk slow, or want to enjoy a slow window browse, could you and your friends go single file instead of taking up the whole width of the walking area??

Do you know how many times I giggled to myself while imagining clothes-lining people today? Tell me I'm not starting to think like Edwin.

time for: bed. work tomorrow. The temp. is gonna go down, right? I'll do a rain dance in the morning.