gah!!

I think I've done a pretty good job controlling my brain from freaking out too much lately. (What? It could've been worse!)

And to think that I used to ridicule others for being too dependent and not being able to see the big picture. Karma is such a bitch. Yes, what's meant to be will still be. I still completely believe this.

It's just that right at this moment, part of me feels like I've been holding my breath since that stupid afternoon in June. It's taken a lot to prevent that part of me from thinking about the worse that can happen. There are so many naysayers.. but there are also ppl who say 4 years will fly by. I rather agree with the latter.

We've discussed and roughly sketched our future on numerous occasions.. sometimes briefly and light-heartedly (Tigger!)... sometimes more in-depth (but.. but.. but..)... but whatever the case may be, it always seem to lead to an agreement that a wonderful life together is quite possible.. and really, what's four years in the grand scheme of things?

Oh good god, I wanna roll my eyes at myself.

time for: shower and bedtime. it's getting late.